Under Pressure

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My stress levels are through the roof. My migraine isn’t letting up in the least. My Fibromyalgia is flaring up due to the weather, which is also causing my IBS to get out of control. I’m absolutely stressed to the max. There is absolutely nowhere else for me to go, at least that’s how it feels.

Half the time I don’t know if I’m coming or going. There are so many things, which need done and taken care of. Dishes. Laundry. Cleaning. Writing. Dealing with anxiety and panic attacks, up to three a day. There are so many things I can’t handle right now. Pressing down on me. Putting me under pressure, I feel like I can’t get out from under.

The depression is slowly killing me. I want out of my own skin, It’s crawling. I’ve been stimming like mad trying to relieve the pressure building within my body. Slowly taking over my body while I pray that strimming will relieve some of the pressure I’m crumbling under, so far it isn’t helping but I can’t stop.

I need to find a way to make it through this. To ease this pressure, getting out from under it. Otherwise, I think I might go crazy. Or have multiple panic attacks today. God, I hope I can avoid those because I don’t know that I can handle all of these emotions at once. It’s all too much pressure and I’m failing, miserably.